Marks everything I do.

Bad service

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 10:03:54 GMT

Omg I look like pangsai, but I think Sheryl Chua XX looks damn cute here :D

Today is fun! :)
Went to winner's house and bought chicken rice for her :D
Walked to Hougang mall and on the way we saw _____ :) Sheryl ah Sheryl........
Took 325 to gym, work out and all. We were like suakus, hahahahaha.
Omg then this not-bad looking guy came and help us.
Omgggg hot guys everywhere around the whole gym, both of us were like so fascinatedddd.
HAHAHA.
Bathe and changed, went Hougang Mall and bought bubble tea and had LJS.
Walked around and walked back to school bus stop.
Damn far but it was damn fun.
Omg I board the bus and the stupid bus driver scolded me, for nothing!
Piss the big fuck out of me.
Anyway, Sheryl Chua is retarded.

Me: Laugh laugh laugh-
Sheryl: STOP VIBRATING!
Me: LAUGH EVEN MORE-

While queuing up for LJS.......
Worker: Hi may I take your order please?
Sheryl: Yeah can I have one combo 1 please?
Me: UM LIKE NO!
Both: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Me: Sings- MARIAAAAA
Me: Eh Sheryl! Can you imagine your maid call Maria then you singing this song and all...
Both: HAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHA

Then BestF called me,
BestF: Tell Sheryl I miss her
Sheryl: Oh ok
Best F: WHA LAU!
Me: Wha li kai si nan tao la (Hokkien)
Sheryl and Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA omg laugh like mad cows

Me: -Talking to BestF
Sheryl: Eh, who? YOUR WORKSHEET AH?!
Me: UM LIKE NO!
Both: HAHAHAHHAHA

omg damn random
Okay today very fun. End of story.

Hello you guess it correct so smart no prize
:(

.......Empty

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 10:23:36 GMT

I only hope that I'll one day deserve what you've given me, but all I can do is try

Sometimes, I feel like an idiot waiting, waiting for something, that you know will never happen, but still wish that it might happen
Why?
Someone tell me how to make me stop waiting?

I wanna rewind everything back to 5 months ago.
I want back my life that way.
Not now.

Memories

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 09:14:50 GMT

Painful

Funniest ever

Sat, 31 May 2008 05:36:51 GMT

Asshole: 1 more hr to short hair!!
Asshole: HAHA
Me: HAHAH
Asshole:i very scared not nice le...
Asshole: how how?!
Me: You cut first la.....
Me: then you know those hair will drop on the floor right? then later you ask the barber keep for you. then you bring home. then later, not nice right. use glue stick back.
Me: HAHAHAHAHAH
Me: OR DO HAIR EXTENSION.
Me: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
Asshole: HAHHAHHA
Me: See! Got 2 choices somemore!
Asshole: WTHHHH!!!!
Asshole: you crazyy or SIAO!!!!
Asshole:hahhaha
Me: c'mon la only the smartest person on Earth can think of such fabulous/fantastic idea!

Kay, blah blah blah then...........

Me: K la!
Me: How short you gonna cut?
Me: Like got any pictures or what?!
Asshole: hahah.... like no......
Me: Hahaha
Me: then like um um, draw out?!
Asshole: -Draws the nicest hairstyle I've ever seen in my entire life- (Pictures later on :))
Asshole: Like that?
Me:WOAH! WHAT A FANTASTIC DRAWING!!!
Asshole: HHAHAHAHAAH!
Me: if your hair like that
Me: *imma gonna make my hair like that.
Me: -Draws the most ridiculous hairstyle- (Pictures later on:))
Asshole: WTH!!!
Asshole: LIKE GOT ELECTRIC SHOCK LIKE THAT!!!!
Both: HAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Omg, I swear I laughed till my stomach burst.

The nicest hairstyle you've ever seen
RIDICULOUS

Plus, 2 cheekopek pictures.
One with hair the other without hair :O

Crawling back to You

Thu, 29 May 2008 11:46:41 GMT

Hi world I'm a fat pig. Hi world there's training tomorrow! :) Hi world this holiday doesn't feel like holiday. Hi world where the hell is Denise Lim? Hi world I am sad. Hi world I like Backstreet Boys and Westlife. Hi world I'm addicted to Crawling back to You that song :O Hi world things seem to change already. Hi world tell me why. Hi world Imma gonna eat my ice cream. Hi world I just saw Daddy limping back to his room. Hi world I want Daddy to recover from his sprain. Hi world, I am kind of sad :( Hi world, someone please mend my broken heart :( Bye world.

EDITED/
Hello world, I don't know if I really want things to be like that. I need to.................. make things clear..........with...................... :(

Macs day Macs face :O

Wed, 28 May 2008 14:45:16 GMT

Obviously day was spent with those retards.

Omg, yes, Macs day Macs face.
Look at my freaking-round-face.

MACS breakfast with BestF in the morning at Whitesands,
I totally have no comments for the BIG breakfast.
Headed to my house after, slacked and all.
Joanne came over, talked more.
She told me something bout' what, losing jobs if............
oh my gosh, so scary :/

Joanne took my underwear and started swinging around.
Me: -talking....- -looks at her, she look at me-
Both: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!
Omg damn funny, she still can tell me she thought it was a cap!
HAHAHAHA.

Alright, trained to Compass with BestF while Joanne went off for her match.
Omg, Macs again. Damn damn damn (x1000000000000000000000000) full.
From Compass,walked to school bus stop, decided to walk to the further down one, then decided to walk back to my house.
Omg, damn tiring. But yay, ily BestF, nice talk with you uh :)
SO TIRED :/

Promises are meant to be broken?

Tue, 27 May 2008 16:00:16 GMT

Promises are meant to be broken?
I don't quite believe when someone told me about it.
Now, I fully understand what it means.....
It's......... heartbreaking, saddening, disappointing......

Yay hello you, I love you :)

Hello mellow.
Alright, was suppose to go out and 'study' with BestF, and obviously failed badly.
I brought my stupid thick books for nothing >:(
Ended up in Airport and was searching for food.
Stomach was hurting like hell, and settled down at some Wang cafe or smthg like that, so eeeyer.
Food was nice, omg the mee siam was damn shiok! Okay mee rebus too.
The ice blended logan was the besttttt!!!! Order 2 cups :D One big one small :D
Went to Candy Empire and omg, embarrassing moments inside, laughed like crazy.
To the viewing mall and talked, was whining all the time.
OMGGGG, BIG NEWS.
I made Jolene Goh Wei Xin fall down uh! HAHAHAHA, laughed till our stomach bursts.
Damn funny kay, the way she fall down!!!!
Trained to Pennisula(how to spell?!?!) and omgggg, we both were damn freaked out cause of so many bengs and lians.
She got her skinnies at $14, stupid, failed attempt to bargain.
Omg people there were damn damn rude and they have a fucked up problem.
So scary :/
Walked to Clarke Quay and had more food, pig day pig day.
Trained back to Sengkang, omg, train ride was saddening. Keep saying what, what if this person die and all, and the whole of ___ go to that person's funeral, what I will react. HAHAHA. Make me sad only.Walked to bus stop and all.
Omg, day was fun with her :)
To JOLENE GOH WEI XIN,
I'M SORRY FOR MAKING YOU FALL DOWN :O

And........ that day at Kbox :O

Touch my body

Sun, 25 May 2008 06:17:33 GMT

:( I.hate.them.so.much.

Alright, headache.headache.headache.
It's raining.raining.raining.
I hate daddy.daddy.daddy.
My phone got confiscated.confiscated.confiscated for 15 minutes.
I am tired.tired.tired.

I think this picture is fucking funny.

Again, someone always have to spoil that little hope :( Not gonna hope for too much anymore. :(

Many reasons why I should give up

Sat, 24 May 2008 11:29:32 GMT

Dead tired :/
Alright, my biggest enemy now is Dad.
Have not been talking to him ever since ystd afternoon, he's being a bastard.
Anyway, talked on the phone till damn late yesterday.
HAHA, fucking funny.

I closed my eyes while talking, and was already drifting away...
Asshole: Eh you brush your teeth already?
Me: Yup.
Me: I bet you didn't right.
Asshole: I did lor, brushed while showering...
Me: Me too!
Asshole: Ya right.
Me: Yup, must underline the important points.
Asshole: HUH??!?!?!?!
Me: -"wakes up" Huh?!
Both: HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA.

OMGGGG.
The other one was...
Asshole: -talks
-drifting off again...-
Me: Eh ni de neh neh hen mei.
Asshole: Huh... wo zhi dao.
HAHAHAHAHA FUCKING FUNNY.

Joanne and Winner came over to bake today,
super funny.
"Making babies" with... HAHAHAHA.
Yup, badminton was damn fun, damn damn damn fun.
Chua XX had to call 3/4 of her contact lists, and finally someone is willing to go out with her for dinner!
HAHAHAHA, alright bye worldddddddddd.

:( Might as well not bring me to this world then. Should have just left me in an orphanage back then.

Long way to go

Fri, 23 May 2008 10:12:10 GMT

It's a long long journey
Till I know where I'm supposed to be
It's a long long journey
And I don't know if I can believe
When shadows fall and block my eyes
I am lost and know that I must hide
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you

Many days I've spent
Drifting on through empty shores
Wondering what's my purpose
Wondering how to make me strong

I know I will falter
I know I will cry
I know you'll be standing by my side
It's a long long journey
And I need to be close to you

Sometimes it feels no one understands
I don't even know why
I do the things I do
When pride builds me up till I can't see my soul
Will you break down these walls and pull me through

Cause It's a long long journey
Till I feel that I am worth the price
You paid for me on calvary
Beneath those stormy skies

When Satan mocks and friends turn to foes
It feels like everything is out to make me lose control
It's a long long journey
Till I find my way home to you
To you

Everytime I look forward to something,
some other things spoils it :/
Why not someone tell me how to look forward to something without letting other people/things/events spoil that small thing.......
:(

Leavin'

Tue, 20 May 2008 11:36:32 GMT

-Very excited in the morning for Games Day
-Played played played
-Run run run
-Jump jump jump
-I fell............
-Skin was coming out and all, ouch.
-Back to school
-Almost died waiting for BestF to finish her Cambodiaaaaa thingy
-Met some asshole
-Sculpture Park
-Home
-I had the worst time of my life in the toilet, almost died from excessive painfulness and screamings
-I fell asleep in front of the computer
-Dinner, damn quiet, got prawnssss!!!!
-Yay,I'm damn tired
-Can fall asleep NOW

SHAG!

No difference at all.

Maybe the problem lies with me.

Mon, 19 May 2008 10:24:57 GMT

Not happy, not happy.
Dim sum with family, a long time since I laughed like crazy.
Caught What Happens in Vegas with sister and Jeremy. Oh my gosh, Ashton Kutcher is fucking hot :D
Arcade with them, and yes! I won Jeremyyy Chuaaaaaaa in air hockey, LOSERRRRRRRRR.
Most people were watching the game, and they were cheering for me uh :)
B&J after, ChunkyMonkeyyyy!!!
Home after.
Car ride was cool, thought a lot, almost cried.

Thanks BestF and Sheryl for the messages,
I am glad I had friends like you all when I'm feeling down.
I swear I almost cried in the car after reading both of your messages.

BestF, thanks for listening to what I've to say, thanks for everything, thanks for the very sweet message when I woke up in the morning, I had to read a few times before I understand cause I wasn't sober. You made me realize that I should not take things for granted, and many more. Thanks many. Thanks for making me believe that I ain't a alien, I should have faith in myself. Yup you owe me paoooooooo. ily!

Xuan Xuannnnnnnnnnn, yeah, I was in the car and I had to read your text like idk how many times to understand, HAHA, cause I was like damn blur and cannot think properly. Yup, thanks for sweet little message, thanks for the, " there's always the sun no matter how heavy the rain is, and if you need someone, always know that i'm just a text away..." That part almost made me cryyyyyyyyyyy. Thanks many winner :) ily!

Maybe the problem lies with me :(
I don't knowwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
I am starting to believe in, the higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment.
:( tsk, everything's screwed.
So much for this, so much for that.
End up, things didn't turn out as what I had expected.

Like a clown, I put on a show. The pain is real, even if nobody knows...

4 minutes

Sun, 18 May 2008 00:50:36 GMT

"All endings are also beginnings. We just don't know it at the time......"

Ahya I am a coward la.
Should just dig a hole and hide myself in there forever.

Oh, so you mean it's kinda the obvious ?

Netball carnival and NSL yesterday, fucking long day I tell y.
Dinner was at Pizza Hut and yah, I think I was damn irritating and feeling damn crappy with all the stupid emo fuck shit attitude I've given to Momsie.

I REALLY don't know what to do.

Fri, 16 May 2008 12:15:13 GMT

So demanding : /

Gave school a miss today :D
I miss my gay guy at the Excel course :(
HAHA.
Alright, off to Compass to find BestF,
went down and bought HERBAL TEA and PRINTED A PHOTO for some asshole (if you are reading this, say I am nice :D)
Yay I am too nice..
Off to BestF's house, yay I like the durian kueh thingy.
Off to Ikea after that, bus ride was embarrassing like shit, tsk!
Ate A LOT, yes, I shall say Jolene Goh Wei Xin is a fat pig that can eat a lot, like SOMEBODYYYY :D
Pass some asshole some stuffs and yay, I think BestF and me are super dramatic.

-88 passed-
Me: (screaming) YES YES YES!!!!

-86 passed-
Jolene: HAHAHAHAH YES YES YES YOUR BUS PASSED !!!!!!!
Me: WTHHHHHHHH (runs runs runs while cursing and swearing)
-Bus coming nearer to us-
Jolene: SHIT ! It's 86 !!!!
Me: HAHAHAHAA!!! YES YES!

So ended up, 161, 88, 82 ALL CAME AT THE SAME TIME.
HAHAHA (tallest to shortest, tsk!)
HAHAHAHA super funny uh, all 3 of us board the bus at the same time.

It's damn damn funny, I keep laughing to myself on the bus.
Alrightttttttttttt, bye.
Okay, JOLENE GOH WEI XIN IS NICE TO EAT UP MY 3 NUGGETS AND 2 FRENCH FRIES. (she force me to write this)

Thu, 15 May 2008 14:37:32 GMT

Alrighty mighty.
Someone reminded me of the story that the mother had one eye.......
And yes, a little bit tah guilty.
I am still thinking of what ______ had said yesterday.
Makes me feel completely, lousy.
Practically whining the whole day in school, and yes, these few days, of course people will see me crying.
Find myself damn stupid.

NEWater trip is cool.
Excel course was not bad.
I said BYE! to the gay guy after school, kinda friendly though, although looks aloof.
Hahaha, I think he was pissed of by me when I was damn retarded.
Keep PSST-ING him, hahahaha.
Kay bye, my eyes are like practically closing but I've to wait till 12AM to send some asshole a motivating message,
and I plain nice or just plain nice ?
:)

Not

Wed, 14 May 2008 13:49:42 GMT

When the feeling's gone, it's gone......... forever.
I'm not a happy kid anymore :(
I still can't sort out my feelings right.
I don't know what to do.

Always be my Baby

Tue, 13 May 2008 09:08:38 GMT

Alright, alright.
I'm hungry :(
Got back results ystd, oh my gosh, almost cried.
Thank god for Denise and Sheryl for cheering me up.
Love ! :)
Sakura after with Sheryl,
omg! Like almost after 5 months, then we were willing to go eat, hahahaha.
Yup, Sculpture Park later on, super retarded and funny.
Sheryl/Me: Starts laughing-
Sheryl/Me: OKAY SHUT UP NOT FUNNY.
Sheryl/Me: Starts laughing again-
That's our conversation like almost the whole day, HAHAHAHA.
Kay home after :D

My teacher told me I failed Math, and she's very upset :(
I was even more upset, I don't know whether she's lying to me a not.
I sat at the table and started crying, damn disappointed with myself.
Kay, hope she's lying, that's all I can wish for NOW.
Please let me pass :(
So mood today was ZZZZ.
But I'm back to normal, no use thinking so much too.
What's done 've been done, cannot change the fact at all, right ?
No point regretting now, work harder for the next one.
Yup, thanks BestF :)
Alright.
I'm tired, I feel like a pig, I've been falling asleep EVERYWHERE I go :(
You see, I'm still soooo bloody damn tired after the !@#$%^&*() hours of sleep.
And my nose is like a mucus tap, now.
Oh my gosh, keep laughing non stop.

My ugliness may burn your eyes*

Last, but not least. 3 HOT photos of Sheryl Chua Xuan Xuan :D

By order: Hot, hotter, hottest ! :D

I'LL NEVER BREAK JOLENE GOH'S HEART :D

Until the end of time

Sun, 11 May 2008 12:30:55 GMT

Alright, it's the 11th.
And it's damn damn damn, so so so coincidental.
Har har.

Kay, my whole family's an asshole.
Especially sister and her boyfriend kay,
cannot stand it anymore.
Just shut the fuck up, tsk.

TSK!
TO SOME ASSHOLE(HAHA):
HELLO BOYFRIEND.

Love song

Sat, 10 May 2008 15:06:12 GMT

L-O-V-E ! :)

"Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you.."

K random.
Out with some asshole today :D
Caught Speed Racer and we don't understand a single thing, cause we were crapping.
HAA, kay dinner and home.
SO tired.
Kay bye losers.

Hi very random, but BestF if you are reading this now, ily a lot ! :)

My heart belongs to you

Fri, 09 May 2008 05:01:31 GMT

Look at me now
I thought I was near the end
Then you came along
When I needed a friend
And you made me love again

Somehow you found me
Wrapped your love around me
Now my head's up in the clouds
When I'm around you
I just wanna say, everyday
Thank God I found you
I will move heaven and earth
Give you my heart, for all that its worth
You are mine 'til the end of time
I don't care what we're going through
'Til the end, my heart belongs to you.

You are my heart
You are my everything
The moon and the stars
And the air that I breath
And you gave me strength again

You know why I'm love shy
I don't want to hurt anymore
I've been hurt before
And I know I
I'm saving my love for you
I'm gonna keep you safe and warm
I do love you

Now my head's up in the clouds
When I'm around you
I just wanna say, everyday
Thank God I found you
I will move heaven and earth
Give you my heart, for all that its worth
You are mine 'til the end of time
I don't care what we're going through
'Til the end my heart belongs to you

My heart belongs to you.

Hi world, I gonna catch Iron Man laterrrr :)
Hi world, I love Casper, the friendly ghost :)
Oh my gosh, someone made me a happy kid this morning.
I kept smiling to myself, non-stop while doing my paper :)
Hahahahaha, kay veh retarded.

Leavin'

Thu, 08 May 2008 05:04:50 GMT

I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“I wish I could find a way try not to cry”
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I’ll give the whole world to see your face
And I’m bragging right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye....

Alright, it's one of those days that I've those shitty feeling again.
It's been a long long time since I felt this way :(
I came home, I cried a lot. A lot.
I feel so terrible, so so terrible......

Alright, I think I am so gonna die for Math.
Screw lah screw lah.
Everything's so screwed lah.

"Sometimes, tears say all that can be said, and understanding comes only with time." - Quote from somewhere..
I agree.

EDITED/
"Why not let your feelings fade away..." -BestF.

Alright, sometimes, I wish I was imbecile uh, then don't have to think so much. Have a mind like a 7 year old kid. Then I won't be so sad and I can be happy over the slightest things.